19th October 2010 . It's the day before her birthday and my first celebration with her . Just a simple one . As an asshole I am , I don't plan on ahead resulting in no surprises , no romantic candle light dinner , no picnic under the watch of constellations , no balloons , no fireworks and nothing special . Just me and my typical gift to her . Something I chose from one of her favorite fashion brands . Personally , I think they'll suit her just fine . I was desperately trying to please her before her big day , on the final few hours before the needles hit 12 , suggesting places that I roughly thinks that she likes instead she suggested to go for a drink . So , we went for 3 pines of KilKenny in a bar . As usual , we conversed on random stuffs exchanging thoughts and of all random topics we chose to talk about sanitary pads . We laughed and smiled on our different silly point of views . 30% of the time we were chatting , giggling and the other 70% filling our spaces with silence while enjoying our drinks . Maybe we were just killing time with our "Thoughtless stare" . As it lasted till exactly 12 , I hugged and wished her "Happy Birthday!" . Deep down I was hoping that I'm the first to actually wished her on 12 sharp . You might ask , "Why?" . Well , it's just one my childish habit to a certain someone I adore . We stayed for a little while more and made our move back home . As we reached her house , she insisted of staying a little longer . She told me that she was pissed off with my reluctance of taking the initiative to solidly ask her out . I told her that I do not want to ruin her plans with her friends that might also celebrate with her on the same night . I told her that I am not willing and do not want to be her burden . Then , comfort came as she confidently told me that I wasn't her burden , that she has already allocate parts of her time for me . I joked that I will improve the celebration of her birthday next year . In a soft tone , she asked , "Will we last that long?" . I tried to pretend that I didn't heard it but I realize that it's useless , she has a point . I agreed with her and insisted that I will still improve the celebration IF we would've last that long . I'll let time decide . Despite what will happen in the future that will always remain a secret to all of us , I told her that I'll never forget her . She does not look too convinced as she said "You've told every other girls you've been with, the same thing." . I could just answer "No, I didn't." . No answers will be strong enough to make her believe so I'd just kill the effort . Inside , I told myself that a memorable relationship is not determined by how long will it last rather it's how you've spent those time together even if it lasted only for a week and what both parties underwent together that makes the said relationship worth it and regret-less . Happy birthday , girlfriend !
